Oh i don't know guys this will be another super random things in this blog that i'm feeling sick although I thought have good food and supplement but my body was down, my motivation, everything. I don't know how to cheer up but right now I'm so lazy. God please help me. I've been messed up my own schedule, please god help me.

Okay now I'm promising to my self, JUST DO IT!!! Remind you that this is not endorsement guys, but if you want me endorse your product call me hahaha. Oh i don't know how to say it, please god reduce my laziness to study and do some productive stuff and stop proscratinating that surely will broke my future. I don't want broke my own future, who want?

And I broke my promise to not joining competition so that i can focus to study study and study but things changes, the promotion of the competition this year is so upsetting because it's way much better than last 2 years grrr.

I got much of dream in my brain, can be i want to be perfect in every way, i don't know why, isn't it just natural that kind of human have? I want to make sort of business, making money and stuff, hold yourself.

1000 thousands minds like aarguing each other, I don't this is kind of random talk so I don't need to explain it to ou right guys? Am I depressed now? I guess!

I don't know the difference between lazy and sick, it's something like my mind keep telling me that I'm sick, isn't it because my mindset? I am so messed up. Oh god please help me, I don't know what is this kind of feeling. I just need to keep up right?

Hey Mira you did well on our second physic test without cheating! wowowowowow,you can do it bruh, look! with your eyes! the others are cheating and fail, how bout u? nonono cheating isn't cool ahaha. I think you can do it better if you try more and more, I know that you have secret potential.

Don't mind other lazy people, count your age! Look at other with the same age! There're many same age with  with sucesful and no no no painful things. Age is doesn't matter anyway, the thing is their passion to do their stuff. Yep, I'm a person with soooo much ambition, so you should do things with absolutely your mind, body, and I don't know-just everything!

It's okay to use your time to competition, just think so that you can reminding yourself that you're lacking of time so that you can use your time wisely. Just please don't ovethink something, you cannot mastering all of the stuff, just please don't torture youd mind, body or anything, just set our goal to minimum standart and then increasing into mastering it so that you're not overthink and being depressed.

If you have problem, smile. It's not solving problem, but its theraphy so that you can be a human form. Throw negative mind, oh take it if you use it as motivation. You should eat good food, good exercise, good sleep, good mind, okkay!